When I am touched….back into the heart!

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Sat Nam, Namaste and Buenos Dias!

Heartfelt greetings from La Cruz, Mexico, about an hour north of Puerto Vallerta, sitting on the beautiful Bay, at Villa Ananda, where I feel myself, again.  If you have followed me along, you might remember we last left off when I returned from a month in India, coming home I felt overwhelmed by the western ways. Not like just a month can make you forget, but it did. And I came home and tried to hold on to that beautiful feeling of being held in the mother’s arms, but the feeling left me and I left myself and I could feel myself detaching from all that was important to me. I went off into some kind of weird place/space in my head, not a good place to be, not for me. Coming home returned me to so many things and ways that now felt so foreign and I just was lost.

I found a part of me in India that I never knew, and I came home, and with several life “shattering” or rather heart shattering experiences, well, I got lost again. But the good news, as Donna would say, is that I did KNOW that I could get to a good place in and with me again, but it took some work.

I found myself returning to Summer Solstice in NM and this time with my daughter. I committed to stay steady, not take on her or anyone else’s “stuff” and yet I found such grace, such love, such unbelievable support from my dear friends, who wrapped us in a “nest of love” and healed so many wounds.

I felt so incredibly grateful for that, for them, for the space, and for what gathering together can do for us, nothing heals like LOVE.

Still, there was a slight disconnect inside of me, my body and mind were just off on their own and my little soul was not with my big Soul! I found chocolate, complaining and negativity to be my new companions. What? Who was this gal?  This is not me!

I meditated, I prayed and I wrote, ’cause that is what helps me. But, I was just too much in my head.

I needed to FEEL!!!!! in my body, on my heart, in my soul.

So, by the grace of the divine and an email about three years ago from Villa Ananda, I remembered this place and decided to head here, and brought my daughter yet again, lucky duck!  I could go into every sacred ayurvedic treatment, the exquisite and fresh food, the morning yoga and meditations by the ocean, but what I want to share is this…the touch.

I realized with each hand on my body, with each loving stroke, each exhale, each drop or vat of oil that was lovingly poured over me, that I began to feel again.  The gift of TOUCH, that right kind of loving touch that comes from an open heart, and flows right into mine, that was what I needed.  I got out of my head, and into my heart, spirit and body again.

Touch, one of our five senses, and maybe one of the most overlooked, was being overlooked by me! So, today, TOUCH someone, hug them (really hug them, not one of those air hugs!:) touch their arm, hold their hand, stroke their hair, their cheek, their back, but reach out, and touch someone. (okay, we still have to remember not to freak some out!) But just do it! I know I will be doing more of it!

Thanks for reading, write back, and if you can go get some touch therapy of any type that works for you, I highly encourage you too. It is a little difficult to feel God, if we cannot even feel ourselves, so feel your heart, because when I feel my heart, I am with God!

With huge hugs to you all,

love,

Denise Kirpal Kaur

  1. ahhh… the power of Touch. i’ve been thinking of you Dejisan and so many of your words ring true. the head is an easy place to get sucked into, and so often a difficult place to step out of. we so often forget about our bodies other than for just its utilitarian uses… (EVEN when we are doing asana). we tend to separate our bodies from our thoughts or emotions. but, our bodies take on and hold so much, more than we feel we can bare sometimes. but, it is our (only) container for all the events, traumas, exaltations we experience in life. heartfelt touch has amazing healing powers. to connect with others, however brief, by way of a heartfelt touch, does the mind/body/spirit more than just good, it HEALS! so i agree with your advice, D…, everyone – get TOUCHED! -and, there are so many practitioners and modalities that can facilitate this amazing healing power: Healing Touch therapy, Reiki, massage therapy, Thai yoga therapy, Trager Approach, and more… it’s all out there, waiting for us…!

  2. and… thank you, Kirpal, for sharing your journey with all of us so openly and candidly! Sat Nam!!

    • kirpalkaur says:

      Sat nam kajisan! great to hear and thanks! also enjoyed your comments below too! you know your healing hands are a part of this too!
      thanks!

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